Friday, March 20, 2009

The Issuse Of Insecurity...

Insecurity is one on my biggest battles. I struggle with it so often, and still seem to be losing. My thought is that, being at girl, we (or at least I am) are programmed to be insecure. Some of my insecurity issues (I am really critical of myself) are: clothing, hair, face (blemishes, dryness, eyebrows, makeup, etc...), ears (mine stick out like an elf...so I don't pull my hair much), and my smile (I said I was critical). I have just recently noticed that I have a crooked smile. The right side of my bottom lip goes down farther than the left side. I asked my mom if she ever noticed it, and she said "Oh yeah, but don't even try to straighten it out, because then it wont be your smile". Thanks mom.


Anyway, I have lots of insecurity issues that cloud my mind when I'm out. Wheather it be at church, with friends, or at a party, but then I "remeber to forget". I say that because when I remember that the people around me like me for me, not for my clothes, looks, etc... I forget about my insecurity. Also, I wouldn't really want friends that looked only on the outside apperance. I'd want the ones that looked past that. It's like they say, "Dont judge a book by it's cover", or as I say "a girl by her makeup".

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

My View...

Okay, I know I asked this question like forever ago, and just now am I giving you my view on H.S relationships.

To me, H.S. relationships are fine, as long at both people are mature enough to be in a relationship. I've seen my share of clingy relationships, touchy-feely relationships, and also mature relationships.

There is nothing more annoying than seeing a girl that is so extremely clingy to her guy, that even if he's your friend, you feel weird talking to him because you're afraid she's gonna get mad at you. I cannot stand that, it drives me CRAZY!!

What about touchy-feely relationships? I feel so awkward when I'm around a guy and girl that cant keep their hands off each other. I mean come on people, have a little self-control!! I hate being in that situation, I just want to be like "Ahem, excuse me but could you keep your hands to yourself...for like two seconds, maybe?".

In my eyes mature relationships are sweetest. They know the boundaries of physical contact, they don't make others feel awkward, and they just have this realness to them. What I mean by "realness" is that they have respect for each other and the ones around them. The girl doesn't get all protective when her guy is talking to another girl. Same with the guy he's not like "Why were you talking to him? What were you saying?". Also, they remember that people, other than the gf or bf, do exist. They're not super infatuated with each other that they forget their friends. That is so important because if it so happens that they break up, they still have the strong bond of friendship with others who still love them no matter what.